Is it better to burn out or fade away?

"快乐时你不用分心想起我
难过时请一定记得联络我

让我分享你的苦 　
带走你的忧愁 　

我觉得这样 　
也算拥有"

the most heartbreakingly beautiful song i've heard in a while

temptations, i cant resist.

"We get onto his bike- it's nothing now for me to climb on behind and fit myself to him- and I don't need to ask where we're going because I'll go anywhere."

every book i read seem to have your name in it.sighhhhh

its getting really pointless and i'm tired of this.i really am.

how come people can stop themselves from sinking deeper into love but i can't?

"Isn't it ironic? We ignore the ones who adore us, adore the ones who ignore us, love the ones who hurt us, and hurt the ones who love us."

"Ultimately, though, it's living people that frighten me the most. It's always seemed to me that nothing could be scarier than a person, because as dreadful as places can be, they're still just places; and no matter how awful ghosts might seem, they're just dead people. I always thought that the most terrifying things anyone could ever think up were the things living people came up with."

been thinking quite a bit about exchange prog, thinking about the school and about leaving familiarity for well, adventure (sort of.)
i'm still in a very jumbled mixed-up state of mind right now, and i don't know how to decide.
i don't know what is best for me, what is best for us .
it is very selfish, and maybe the fact that i'm not very sentimental makes it easier (theoretically at least) for me to leave for a sem. still juggling with the thought of going there alone, without pre-knowing anyone. that kind of independence and freedom does sound very appealing.

some days i miss you more than usual
some days the people around me remind me of you more than usual
some days my heart cant stop thinking about you
there are so many times i wanted to make things right, but i don't know how to.
right now, i wish you were here.

"Gosh, yes, I do believe that this happens all the time. People are constantly hurting the folks they love the most- by suffocating them with attention, or by not giving them the freedom to grow up and learn who they are, or by thinking they know what's the best for the other person and realizing too late this wasn't the case. There are a million and one examples of relationships that have been smothered by too much love, rather than too little. I'd say that love becomes harmful when you keep telling yourself that you've put your loved one first...but in reality, everything you do and say is really about you, and your own fear of being left behind or lost."
Jodi Picoult

'sometimes it lasts in love, but sometimes it hurts instead'

for the millionth time i feel like the worst lover ever.